A month or so back, I wrote a guest post for Serena Wood’s blog Grace is for Sinners called “Exposed”(she even had the audacity to call it “Affair Week”! Oh the nerve!) where I recounted the events that led to my first affair.
Before I sent it off to Serena, I shared it with my wife Melody and we both had a good cry over it. Some of the comments and emails that I received after that post asked why.
Why would I drudge up the memory of that day?
Why would I bring up the pain?
Why not let the past be the past?
The simple answer?
The first 30 years of my life, I felt I needed to perform a certain way in order for God to love me. To do this, I minimized my sin and kept lots of secrets. At my core was a deep unbelief in the wonderfully scandalous Gospel…He loves us just as we are!
When my sin was exposed, it hurt like hell. It was beyond embarrassing. I went from a perfect reputation to moral leper overnight.
But God met me there. I began to see how truly amazing His grace is. He didn’t save me because He had good taste. He saved me knowing full well I would have affairs.
That I would lie.
That I would break my vows.
To my wife.
When I was working hard to keep a pristine reputation, I had to minimize my sin in order to keep up the front. Now that my life has been totally rocked by the truth of the Gospel, I don’t have to hide anymore. And because of that, I no longer have to minimize my past failures.
As Paul shared with the Church at Corinth…
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
We can only boast in our weaknesses when we truly believe He loves us as we are.
What weaknesses are you boasting in today? How do you bring the Gospel to your past failures?